it gets boring quick.
couple month old repost. the brutal reality of this "life"
almost 6am as I’m writing this. it’s bedtime soon.
eyes barely open, I’ve already popped my 3 capsules of hibernation.
litre of fermented raw milk has been slammed. tasted like cheese. but makes you rock hard when you wake up.
bedtime minoxidil applied, maximising my already blessed genes.
mastic gum in my mouth, let the fermented raw milk grow my jaw in my sleep.
laptop on my lap. lower abs are painfully sore. i can barely sit up.
can’t even crack my knuckles. bare knuckle on the heavy bag does damage.
trying not to get a cramp in my leg. the shin splints are treacherous.
instagram story up, nurturing the “leads” for later.
50mg nicotine sitting in my top lip. it’s the only thing keeping me awake.
silk sleeping mask on my head, the sunlight I’m gonna sleep through will not have an effect on me.
sounds fun. huh?
i’d love to tell you that it’s hard and I’m so disciplined and you should aspire to be like me.
but it’s simply not true. this isn’t discipline. it’s boring.
levelling up is so effortless now, because it’s the norm.
I don’t even have a set routine like all these gurus tell you to, I just wake up… get to the nicotine and work.
sometimes I even catch myself waking up randomly and realise I was actually writing in my dream, I swear i’ve programmed it to be a machine.
but when your brain and body is a machine, this shit gets boring. quick.
everyday is like playing the minecraft tutorial world over and over. so of course it is.
i’m grateful for waking up every day in good health, and I’m grateful to be breathing. even if the only breaths I notice are the “sss” breaths when I’m hitting the heavy bag.
the point is… this life is all repetition.
and when your life is just repetition, it gets boring.
and I need you to understand that this is normal.
some people sub to my email list but then stop opening emails a couple days in.
this is simply because the novelty has worn off, they got that original dopamine spike from doing something productive for once in their life, then it wears off when they realise this is a boring reality.
I can hype it all I want and make it seem “cool”
but I’m just glorifying the boredom in hopes that it will keep you going.
that’s why I do this.
you know, when you’re in survival trench mode and you simply have a goal to get you on baseline. you don’t actually feel boredom because the pain of staying the same exceeds the pain of growth.
but when you actually start to make good money, that’s when the boredom sets in.
you’re going through the motions everyday… and it’s simply boring.
it’s boring because it’s easy.
and if something is too easy, it will be boring.
this is why games are often recommended to be played at “normal” mode.
to get into flow, your task shouldn’t be too hard or too easy.
the “flow state” comes in the middle. when the task provides just enough of a challenge for your brain to work.
if it’s too hard? then you won’t get into flow.
if it’s too easy? same applies.
soon, you’ll get to a point where you’re at a point where this becomes easy and you’ll see what I mean.
this is the point where you actually start reminiscing on the days where shit was hard. the times where you could actually get into flow because the challenge matched your skill level.
but after endless learning and acquiring mental models to look at life through? shit becomes boring.
blessing and a curse, I know.
but if you ask anybody who has made it, their greatest memories weren’t the end, it was the process to the end.
the process of overcoming obstacles, that is the highlight of the journey.
after you know how to overcome almost any obstacle? it just becomes an easy game of chess. you’ve got the lens of a grandmaster, and the grandmaster finds chess boring against an easy opponent.
blessing and a curse. “suffering from success”. I know.
but I just want you to keep this in mind, simply because if you’re experiencing hopelessness, doubt, fear, anxiety.
that just means you’re alive.
that means you have emotion, that means you’re living.
after a while? the emotion goes because it’s all just problems/solutions.
but when it wasn’t just problems/solutions? it was more fun.
but that’s just the cost to be the boss. becoming bored.
that’s all I want to say.
if you’re experiencing pain in your journey right now…
don’t see it as bad.
it just means you’re alive.
treasure it, because you’ll look at this with gratitude.
trust me on that.
keep grinding.
on that note. I’m off to sleep, goodnight.
stay busy.
d4”2busy”
P.S email on d42 premium coming in one hour…
